NYC Marathon

After all that, I am training for the NYC Marathon on November 7, 2010. I am surprisingly upbeat about it, given the fact that I felt so wonderful after running 10 miles this morning. Ten miles is great... but still substantially short of the ultimate distance. We shall see what happens....

Time moves on

A lot has happened. We bought a house. I had a baby. I want to write a lot but I am having trouble finding the words. I'm not sure I've found myself, either.

We'll see.

Fragments

I have lost myself and I search for her on December streets lined with French Canadian tree sellers and their pagan trees that smell like winter, like cold fresh air in northern forests. As I pass I hear glimpses of the deepwoods Quebecois patois that sounds like a half-forgotten dream. Pieces of the world puzzle tumble through my senses as I inhale the scents of Ethiopian injera topped with a dozen deeply-flavoured dishes one night, and Indian bhel puri and lamb korma the next. But the deepest puzzle piece eludes me as I plunge down stairways and ride trains through tunnels and surface to other streetlights reflected in the wet pavement that sings as cars brush past and vanish into points of red light at the next corner.

As I become more than whole I fear the self I am searching for is gone forever.

Coda into Summer

Light dinner at the sidewalk cafe at Bistro 33. Walked the remaining block to Astoria Park as the sun was setting, and settled on the grass between the bridges to hear the Chapin Family sing songs of their own and of Harry. It was nearly air temperature air with a breath of warmer breezes, as the sun faded and the bridges glowed and the lights of the city rose to reflect in the swift-running East River at high tide. A lone bat swooped above, carrying the sweet music and clear voices into the darkening sky.

A day full of

A day full of
sharp words
sharp emotions
dulled only
by
nothing

nothing that satisfies
nothing that reaches the soul
everything is left
hanging

alone
along with
the others
there is no
easing of anything

I suppose it's only
what we all see,
or feel

Another Summer Begins

The weekend was wonderful.

I think everyone left early to avoid the traffic. It took friends five hours to get up to New London, leaving at 1:30. We left at 6:30 and took the slow road and went way around New Haven -- and it took us 2 hours and 45 minutes. As we entered Connecticut on the Merritt, we looked at the open road in front of us and at each other and said, "where are all the cars?" It was a green and golden drive, the early evening sun streaming through the newly green trees in golden swathes. The Merritt is just beautiful this time of year, with grassy verges, overhanging trees, and graceful old stone bridges. We got there so fast, they didn't even have time to eat their dinner at a local restaurant. A woman at the bar got on the phone and gave us directions from the I-95 exit, and we pulled into the parking lot at 9:20.

Since we were the first guests to arrive, we got the pick of the beds - a mattress double, queen waterbed, or futon double. We chose the mattress double in a room off the dining room - I have slept many times on a waterbed, and they don't thrill me. The others arrived about 15 minutes after we got to the house, and we cracked open the wine, some cheese, and movie-tasting popcorn (made with coconut oil!). We explored the house and then sat in the living room, catching up and chatting. The house is beautiful - built in 1913 with a relatively open floorplan downstairs, clean lines reminiscent of an arts and crafts bungalow, lots of wood painted white, which fits the beach location of the house - the Long Island Sound is just half a block away.

The next morning, 8:30 was too early, but we were roused by various kitchen noises. My friends all got to see my weekend morning grogginess, which caused not a little amusement. Making the coffee was difficult, but I finally managed. We had a wonderful breakfast, all of us contributing something.

Set out for the shore, and with shoes in hand, walked on the firm sand along the edge just out of reach of the still-frigid water. Walked to the edge of Alewife Creek and wandered through tidal flats, fording shallow stretches of stream. Back across the beach and into the beachside arcade, frozen in time from the 1980s. The skee-ball tokens and cheap, yet coveted, prizes still look the same, although they are probably made in China now instead of Taiwan.

Back at the house, there was a peaceful stillness that allowed me to relax. The only street noise was the breeze that caused the sunlight to dance through the leaves, punctuated only occasionally by a child's laugh, the sound of a ball hitting the ground, or the brief buzz of a lawnmower. The air was clean and fresh and lightly tinged by the saltiness that is fundamental to me.

We broke the spell by piling into two cars and heading for Captain Scott's Lobster Dock, located near the land seized by eminent domain that has fallen into disuse, next to the Amtrak line and swivel bridge. Jim was enraptured by the industrial setting and set off to explore, leaving me to order. Steamers, clam bellies, a hot lobster roll, 1 1/4 lb. lobster dinners, with crisp fries and purple cole slaw. We washed it all down with a crisp vinho verde we had picked up on the way there. Took our time, laughed at the menfolk with their lobster bibs blowing straight out behind them like the Red Baron.

Next stop was Thames River Wine and Spirits (that's the THAYMES River, not the TEMMS River, btw), a fantastic store in an incredible space (scroll down the link to see a photo of the wine cellar). Spoke with Jim the Wine Guy, each of us describing our planned contribution to dinner so he could recommend a wine for each course. After choosing the perfect wines, we wandered across the street to an amazing antique/junk store, one of the biggest I've ever seen and with stuff you'd actually want to buy. Jim bought me the US Army's Meat Handbook from 1945 - illustrated with lots of butcher cuts.

Then, it was time for ice cream. We headed to Michael's Dairy. Chocolate monstrosity in a sugar cone, butterscotch, black raspberry, coconut, lime - take your pick. We ate sitting at barn-red picnic benches set out on a perfect lawn, next to a red barn with white trim. In the middle of the lawn was a flag pole with waving flag. Across the drive was a gazebo decked with patriotic bunting. It was a picture-perfect slice of americana, and for once it didn't seem so bad. After the ice cream, one by one, we made our way to the expanse of manicured green, took off our shoes and socks, rolled up our jeans, and stretched out on the grass. Eyes closed against the brilliant sunshine, the smell of fresh grass and springtime in our noses, we made up for months of concrete deprivation and did our best to burrow into the earth.

We headed back reluctantly but resolutely, for we knew that we had hours of cooking ahead of us, followed by the promise of hours of eating. Cook we did, and eat we did -- starting at close to 9pm, we stretched out the eating over an epic six hours, with a break around 1am to head to the bonfire burning strong on the beach. We watched the moonrise over Fisher's Island - a mango-shaped moon so huge and deep orange in the dark sky and reflected in the dark sea that it looked like an apocalyptic sunrise. The meal finally drew to a close with a beautiful series of wine and cheese pairings marred only by fatigue.

Sunday morning, beautiful sunny spring Sunday morning on the beach. There was time for a beach stroll, coffee mug in hand, another delicious breakfast (how was it possible we could be hungry?), a little time to listen to the silence, and then, bags and car packed, we said reluctant goodbyes and headed to the ferry only a few miles away. It was a smooth trip across the Sound, and before too long, we were at our destination in Greenport. There was time for another good evening, another day of being able to listen to the wind, finishing with a slap of reality upside the head.

Thoughts on the New Year

Another year. Another year of what I didn't want. Tomorrow I will dress, dress in my funky red dress and my boots, and put on the laughing jester. What I want I do not want, and what I do not want I want. I will look forward instead of to the past, but the future is a mirror that cannot resist reflecting. I will dance when the ball falls, and turn my head so others do not see my glistening cheeks or lie and say it is champagne sparkles.

The Beach, Ah, The Beach

It's been a very long time since I have just gone to the beach locally - not on Mexico or in some exotic place, just the familiar shore. If you grew up in the Northeast, you know what I'm talking about - one of those weekends on the Jersey Shore or in Long Beach. Small towns that blend into one another, one main drag lined with small shops and a couple of blocks stretching off it lined with closely spaced, old-time summer cottages. A wide, sandy beach, sometimes framed by a boardwalk. You find your plot of sand, and you set up shop, unloading beach umbrellas, chairs and towels, finding a shady spot for the cooler. Settle in, warm up, and head for the surf. The water's a perfect temp, and even a little rough, with wave after wave cresting as it reaches shallower water. You dive in, and in, and in again, into the wave. Boogie board or body surf, if you time it right you can ride the wave almost back to the beach. The wave throws you under sometimes, and you get sand in your suit and swallow the salty water and come up sputtering - and you turn around and do it again.

Hours later you gather your things and stagger the two blocks back to the house. A shower never felt so good, sluicing off the accumulated sand and suntan lotion. Off to the wine shop and then the small market for some last minute supplies. Grill an enormous grass-fed London Broil and lots of organic summer veggies, and dig in with a big salad, crusty bread, and summery red wine. Finish off the meal with a selection of ice cream and grilled organic fruit.

Things get even better if you decide to spend the night when you find out there's an extra bedroom for you. Then it's time to change and go out on the town - the bar scene's perhaps not quite as enticing as it was 15 years ago, but it's still lots of fun. Back before 2 and sack out to wake up to another perfect sunny day.

Strong black coffee, enormous organic local breakfast sausage links, eggs, sunny side up, give the right energy to hit the beach once again. The surf is calmer today, but still with a big wave once in a while to ride into shore. The water temp is absolutely perfect and you dive, dive, and dive again and then return to sun and sand, with the ceaseless crash of waves giving rhythmic punctuation to the hours slipping by too quickly.

Ride back home in a convertible, wind whipping through your hair and the music makes you want to dance. We don't want the weekend to end, so we go to the butcher, buy enormous steaks, and everyone comes over for a little more grilling, a little more relaxing, a little more wine, and a little more time with friends.

The Best Rainy Day

Under threatening skies I navigate down my one-way street in reverse, necessary to avoid the Greek Orthodox street procession that is the culmination of the three-day long street fair. Collecting friends, we jump on the BQE and into the traffic that slows as we enter Brooklyn and a downpour that will be with us for the rest of the afternoon. I exit at my old haunt, Atlantic Avenue, and we make our way down a crumbling Columbia, then over and down Hicks, skirting the Brooklyn Battery Tunnel, until we arrive at our destination – the Red Hook Ball Fields.

With umbrellas, dodging drops and waterfalls from tarps, we listen to a mingling of English and half a dozen Spanishes and breathe in the smells of Mexican, Central and South American street food. For this is why we have come, to sample the freshly made huaraches, tortas, tortillas, tacos de chiles rellenos, ceviche, crispy hot empanadas de carne or queso glistening with hot oil, all washed down with tall glasses of jugo de piña, or the crowd favourite, horchata. Pupusas con chicharron, queso and jalapeño, or frijoles con queso, or calabaza, made by quick fingers dipping in the large bowl of soft masa dough, circle formed around the mound of filling, pinched together and flattened into a disk and thrown on the griddle, made to order while you wait. The crowds were thinned by the rain and the glowering skies rent by streaks of lightning and booming thunder, but that didn’t dampen the spirits of those who were there for the food or to play their weekly game of fútbol.

Slipping through the familiar beloved streets of Brooklyn, stitching the neighbourhoods together, weaving among the half-broken streets on the edges now lined with gentrification rising. Past warehouse shells and factories-cum-condos encrusted with scaffolding, down the narrow streets nearly to water’s edge and the new home of the Brooklyn Ice Cream Factory. Dodging thick drops and laughing our way inside the old Bleu Drawes space transformed with ice cream machines and newly exposed brick wall and fireplace. A warm welcome from owner Mark Thompson to his cool treat – smooth, rich chocolate, crunchy butter pecan, intense (decaf) coffee that’s not too sweet. Dense and creamy, it’s Philadelphia-style ice cream, made without eggs and with turbinado sugar that adds a round note of caramelisation to every flavour.

Finally sated, we make our way back across the Pulaski bridge, up Vernon, and under the Queensboro Bridge toward home. We promise ourselves another pilgrimage under sunnier skies, before the summer’s close.

How not to have a good morning, in 11 easy steps

1. Wake up late for the second morning in a row, cursing the early introduction of Daylight Saving Time, knowing you have to do the following before leaving for work:

a. Make sure husband has signed the post office "You missed a package delivery" notification slip and put down you as the authorised agent to pick up said package at the world's most annoying post office;
b. Discover that said husband has not signed name in the area you carefully circled the night before, but next to the big X on the other side of the page;
c. Call said husband and leave an annoyed, pre-coffee message explaining that he signed the wrong part;
d. Make sure you have copy of marriage license, in addition to picture ID and incorrectly signed package slip, since you have different last names, and the last time you went to the post office to pick up a package for said husband two days before Christmas the overworked postal worker yelled at you and told you you could be anyone trying to pick up what turned out to be a miniature fake tree that was supposed to be a whimsical invitation to a New Year's Eve party;
e. Remember the bag with two packages that said husband also needs to have mailed at the post office. Fortunately, said packages are already stamped.

2. Walk six blocks to post office. As you are passing the bank, realise that you need to speak to the bank manager (for the second time) about the $50 Amex gift card promised to you as an award for opening an account in 2006, which you never received but for which you received a tax statement.

3. At the bank, you wait, pacing, while a man explains is broken English to the bank manager that there must be some mistake about his $4300 overdraft. Finally, you are able to speak to the bank manager, who remembers you, expresses apparently genuine dismay that the problem was not resolved when you spoke to him last month, and promises that it will be straightened out by 6pm tonight.

4. You make you way to the post office, and get on line, with six people in front of you. There are two windows open, one of which is occupied by the man speaking broken English from the bank, who is insisting that he be allowed to add his name to a postal box, since he receives very important mail. You wonder whether it was a $4300 check that went astray.

5. You finally get to the window, where you present the package slip, your driver license, and the copy of your marriage certificate. You watch as the clerk looks at the marriage certificate in bewilderment for at least a minute. Finally, you say, well, since the package is for my husband - "oh!" She interrupts. "This is a registered package. I must see his ID." You scratch your head in mounting rage. The package notification slip says nothing about requiring the ID of the person to whom the package is addressed. "So does he need to come back?" I ask. "No," she replies. I only need to see his ID." "So I can come back with a photocopy of his driver's license?" "No. No photocopies. You can bring his driver's license, passport, whatever. If you come back today I will be here, and you can come directly to my window without waiting on line." Ok, so she was reasonably pleasant.

6. You leave the post office, gibbering into the phone in a rage. You go up the subway stairs, and your rage increases exponentially the moment you realise that because it is suddenly warmer than it should be, you switched jackets this morning, but left your Metrocard and your work ID in the pocket of the heavy winter coat you have been wearing until now because until yesterday it was hovering around January lows at midday.

7. You storm down the stairs on the other side of the subway station, still gibbering and cursing into the phone. Your husband is getting tired of listening to your rage, but you explain that you are not mad at him, but if you don't gibber into the phone, you will punch a light pole and break your hand.

8. You dump the two other packages you forgot to mail while at the post office into the first corner mailbox that you see, because you know you are not going to be going back to the post office that day. You make your way the five blocks back home.

8. As you walk in the door, slightly calmed down, you realise that since you are back home, you might as well pick up your husband's passport and tackle the post office once again.

9. On your way back to the post office, you pass the bank for the second time, and suddenly realise that you have been walking around with several hundred dollars in checks to deposit for at least a week. You go inside the bank, give a harried smile to the bank manager, who says, "what, you're back?" You end up telling him the whole story after you deposit the checks. He smiles in sympathy and says, well, at least the day has to get better, right? Right.

10. You make your way back to the post office, and go back to the window with the semi-sympathetic clerk. You wait as a woman purchases $3000 in money orders and wants to know the pricing for various express mail options to Jamaica.

11. You finallly go up to the window, presumably angering the six other people on line, but not caring, because the woman told you to. You hand her your husband's passport and the package slip, and smile slightly, tensely, finally, when she returns from the back room out of which New Order is blaring, with the small envelope from Hong Kong.

Cipher

Cipher
ground into many
is naught

standing on
hollow ground
the souls of many
all around
cipher ground

cipher stood
on hallowed ground
beyond the edge
without a sound
remains a cipher
left intact
on the ground
all around

dust is ground
into a cipher
enigmatic
with no sound
into your eyes
into your smile
it covers you
in nothing

within us all
is cipher ground

LSM 11/12/02

Always with the Fish Bones

My friend Marta came over for dinner last week. We had decided on grilling fish, which we hoped would be fresh bluefish caught by Jim and his dad. Well, Jim and his dad went kayaking, so Jim returned home a little later than planned.

Fortunately, I had prepared for this eventuality by going to the store and getting some fish. Now, you should know that the thing I like least about my new job is that Grand Central Market is no longer across the street from my office. In it I had my fish monger, my butcher, my cheese store, my specialty shop (foie gras, truffles and the like -- uh, not that I've ever bought a real live truffle), and more. I miss it terribly.

In fact, the nearest good food store to my office now is Whole Foods, clear across Central Park. After my experience tonight, though, I'm beginning to think that's not such a bad option - except, perhaps, when it's 15 degrees out.

Instead of heading west, I headed east in my quest for fish tonight. I was actually aiming for Katagiri, on 59th between 2nd and 3rd. Except I thought it was on 58th, so I walked down past the array of Indian restaurants on 58th, very confused. At that point I was running out of time, so I just went to the Food Emporium underneath the Queensboro Bridge at 1st Ave. Well, I'm sorry, but Food Emporium is kind of like the kid dressing up in its mother's clothes. It's a generic grocery store that doesn't quite pull off being a gourmet market.

I went through the vegetable section to the back of the store, to the fish counter. The butcher and fish counters were clearly wrapping up for the evening - it was shortly after 7pm. I had been planning on buying a couple of branzini for stuffing with my favourite combination this summer - rub with olive oil and salt, and stuff the deboned cavity with ultra thin slices of red onion and lemon, and sprigs of thyme. I looked at the sections of fillets, mixed seafood and wet scallops with a sinking heart. I didn't see a single whole fish in the entire display case. As I stood there with my head down, a young guy came over behind the counter and said, "how can I help you?" I said, "do you sell any whole fish?" He looked puzzled (bad sign). He came out from behind the counter, looked at what I was looking at, and said, "what do you mean?" I paused. "Uh, like, the whole fish - you know, with the head and tail, not just a fillet." I mean, how else do you describe a whole fish? "Oh." He looked uncertain. After entirely too long a pause, he said, "we have red snapper." "Whole?" I asked. "The entire fish?" "Yes." "How much is it?" He punches into the scale. Punches some more. "$18.99." Uh, no. That's a fillet price, not a whole fish price. Still, I'm curious. "Can I see one?" "Sure." He goes into the back, and brings out a fish with ice particles still on it. It's fresh - the eye is clear, and not sunken. It looks firm. "How much does it weigh?" He puts it on the scale. Just over 2 pounds - over $38. Wow, that's too much for a fish. But what are my options? I waver. "Ok, I'll get it." He puts the fish back on the scale, prints out the price label. "Wait!" I say. "That's not right, to charge me the same price for the whole fish that you would for the fillet." He doesn't seem to understand. A fillet, I'm paying for your work and not for the bones and so forth. "Ok, I can give it to you for $15.99," he says after thinking a bit. I think a bit, too. "I've never paid that for a whole red snapper," I say, and I explain to him further the difference." "ok," he finally says, "what would you pay then?" We finally settle on $12/lb. It's still a little high, but I'm just happy that I've brought him down $7/lb.

So I get the fish home. I unwrap it. I peer inside. No guts - but just about everything else. I've never deboned a fish, and Jim's not here. I've given instructions to him about butterflying a fish from what I've read on the internet, but I've never done it myself. I peer inside again - I see a small dark thing that looks awfully like a heart. Marta arrives. I tackle the fish. I remove various small discreet bits from the cavity. I hack off the tail. I try to cut off the head after talking to Jim and discovering that the main cut should be behind the pectoral fins. I cut off more bits from the inside. I finally figure out how to cut off the head, except the last bit I think is going to be bone isn't, and the head flies out of my hand and onto (fortunately) the counter. The backbone and ribs are still in the body. I have to get them out. I don't know how I do it, but I somehow get the backbone out, but not all the ribs. We'll just have to savour our food (aka eat carefully to avoid swallowing big fish bones). The inside looks all hacked up, but that's ok.

Oh, before I get the backbone out, I decide to descale the fish. I read up on it in the New Joy of Cooking, and soon fish scales are popping all over the kitchen. Somehow we manage, though, and we successfully descale the fish. I am picking fish scales out of my skin and hair for most of the night. Unfortunately, the skin turned out to taste rather fishy, and I didn't enjoy it.

I rub the hacked-up cavity with olive oil and salt, spread out ultra-thin sliced lemon and red onion, and lay down lots of fresh thyme. Next time, I'm going to put fresh thyme on both sides. It's really wonderful.

Heat the grill on high, keep it on high, rub it with oil, fish on, 8 minutes per side. It was perfect. Marvelous. Fantastic flavour (except the skin, much of which stuck to the grill anyway). Perfect with CSA salad of lettuce and grape tomatoes, and, much later, smoked bluefish.

Summer

Some days, the view is obscured by clouds, some days by polluted brume. Sometimes the uneven peaks glitter in the sun as I plunge below the earth on one more day, one more trip. I can get whatever I want, good or bad. I can see whatever I want, be whatever I want, feel whatever I want. I can see beauty and repulsiveness but nothing is average. Nothing except those who don’t care anymore. No one except those who don’t see or feel anymore. It is freedom only as long as you do not let yourself be controlled by it. Its intensity is a drug, just a little bit more, a little bit more, and you find yourself craving feeling and swirl of activity and hot air with little bits of paper that are blown up into your face by the yellow cab that passes too close at your fingertips you cough and dart in front of the bus now it’s a game to gain the sidewalk before the bus gains you and then you push on into the greenery down the hill and the horns fade and the damp smell of fresh earth and flowers looms up and envelopes you and you can run into the grass and fall down and roll through and still its intensity radiates up through the earth and will never let you go as you peer up through the sunlight at the tower glittering in the sun.

Spring? Says Who?

M E M O R A N D U M

To: Spring

From: Winter

Date: March 21, 2006 - [First Full Day Of Spring]

Re: Cancellation

Please note that, effective immediately, you have been cancelled. The regulations do not provide for an appeal of your cancellation. You will be advised of your rescheduling.

* * *

I mean, really. It was something like 14 degrees this morning with the wind chill. This is not North Dakota - although I have it on good authority that it was a balmy three, count 'em, three, degrees there a couple of mornings ago. I did indeed wear The Hat (tm)* to work this morning, something I normally reserve for days when the actual temperature drops below 20, but since I've never worn it when it's been officially spring, I made an exception this morning. I didn't tie it beneath my chin, though -- something I do when it's really cold that immediately identifies me as Not Cool and Not Russian. But that's ok, because it makes me a Warm New Yorker.

*Yes, The Hat, as it has been dubbed by my friends, is a genuine Russian rabbit fur hat, complete with ear flaps, brought back by my parents from their visit to Moscow in January 1994. (It is only fitting that while they were there, we had one of the coldest, longest cold spells in New York I can remember, while they were enjoying relatively balmy mid-30s in Red Square. I drove them to JFK, so I had the car while they were gone, which led to lots of fun and excitement on the streets of Brooklyn when the car door froze open one day. But that's another story, and another post.)

Words

bicycle ride on the sidewalk
a man brushes his teeth
furiously
over the corner trash can
( so I've heard)
a car winds sinuously backwards down a one-way street
drops of rain
trickle down the panes and
pool darkly on my shoetops

lowering grey skies yield little clue
as to the coming blue
a splash of bright graffito at the top
of vertical brick
how did they get there
the modern spidermen
in their delicate midnight dance
of evasion and challenge

the Broad Way name
once in lights and future same
I walk down the other so prosaic
these lights are tired Christmas lights
twitching feebly in their long decline
reflections dancing dimly in the puddles
lapping at their feet and
suddenly splashed on the casual passerby
who no longer cares
about the bicycle
ride on the sidewalk

Praline Bacon - or Bacon Brittle?

For New Year's 2003/2004, as I think I've mentioned before, Jim and I went to New Orleans, and fell in love with it. We also fell in love with something called praline bacon, which, as I had read in an online description, possibly somewhere on Chowhound, is the "food equivalent of crack." Here's how I wrote it up shortly after we returned from the Big Bacon Fest:

The Day Of The Praline Bacon Adventure, Or What Laura And Jim Had For Breakfast.

Yup. Did it. Had it. It’s legal. Crack is not. Although I’ve never tried the latter, I would say that it is a fair comparison.

So breakfast on this beautiful, unexpectedly crisp Tuesday morning was to be at a little Creole place called Elizabeth’s, in a neighborhood called the Bywater. We didn’t drag ourselves out of bed until close to 10:00, and Elizabeth’s serves breakfast – and consequently praline bacon – only until 10:30. We could see on the map that the street Elizabeth’s was on intersected our street, but we didn’t know which block Elizabeth’s was on. Our host looked it up, and told us it was within a block of our street – but the street itself was a good 10 blocks away. (And that's clear as mud.)

We began walking. And walking. The clock was ticking. We crossed the railroad tracks. And walked. Finally, we spotted Gallier Street. We were only a block away – but in which direction? To the right looked like a dead end at the levee. We turned left. Walked about ½ block – that didn’t look promising, either. It was getting awfully close to 10:30. We turned back towards the levee. And sitting tucked away at the end of the block, at the corner of Chartres St. (which had been completely dug up), was Elizabeth’s. We walked in at exactly 10:30. There was one table for two left, and we sat down. We were in time to hear a waiter say to a woman next to us, “well, if your friends don’t get here before they’ve ordered” (pointing to the table of 4 seated just before us) “they’ll have to order lunch.” He then told the next couple as they came in the door, “breakfast is over, it’s only lunch now.” I snagged the waiter, and with something approaching panic in my voice, said, “we would like to order breakfast.” He said, “No, you’re ok. You’re the last ones.” Jim and I like to cut it a bit close on occasion.

We ordered one serving of praline bacon. Jim then ordered an omelette made with smoked sausage, and I tried to order the same, but in the middle of ordering I forgot that I was supposed to be ordering an omelette, and asked for the eggs to be done over easy. So I got my eggs over easy with sausage, grits and a biscuit. I had a small piece of the biscuit and about ¼ of the grits – both were excellent. The sausage was awesome, with a real kick.

If you are the type who likes the maple syrup from your pancakes to mingle with your bacon, you love praline bacon. It doesn’t matter whether you like nuts or not. I hate most nuts, including pecans (at least, I thought I hated pecans until this trip. I may have to change that). Praline bacon is basically bacon that has been coated on one side with sugar syrup and small pieces of pecans. Deadly. I love it. I will go there again.

I will also report that I now like pecans, in case any of you were wondering. I am even happier to report that Elizabeth's survived Katrina, is open, and, so far as I know, is still serving praline bacon.

I met up with a friend last night for - what else? - a little sushi (funny how something like that happens when you lock yourself out of your apartment and your husband isn't coming home for another two hours and you run into your friend at your local coffee shop), and then Jim finally joined us. After a little sushi and a little sake, and we were parting ways, Meg dropped a bombshell.

"Have you ever heard of bacon brittle?"

Beat. "Uh, bacon brittle?" Yes, she assured us, there really is something called bacon brittle. It seems to be the reverse of praline bacon, in a particularly dangerous kind of way. And she sent us the link.

Without further ado: bacon brittle. Because of the wonky way the page is set up, you have to scroll all the way down and look on the left, and click on the more info button. I will leave you with an excerpt from the product description:

It was as if Allen Ginsberg had just read Howl or Bob Dylan had just played electric for the first time. I became fixated on the Bacon Brittle and had to have it for my catalog. If ou or soemone you know claim to love bacon, you must try this. It will shake the earth you walk on. One bite and you'll shake and dance and involuntarily yell out, "Yeah baby, Yeah Baby, Yeah!"

A bit more evocative than "the food equivalent of crack", ¿no?

The Return of Crunchy Flake

*blows dust off*

Why, hello. I did not intend to abandon you precipitously, but I began a new job, and was immediately forced to forgot there was anything else in my life. My air tank ran out a few days ago, though, and while I surfaced to exchange it for a new one, I thought I’d drop by.

Sushi, last night, again at our current favourite, Sushiya, on 56th St., which lately has had incredibly fresh fish. Saba (mackerel). Sawara (Spanish mackerel). Unagi (fresh water eel). Anago (sea eel). Hamachi (yellowtail). Ikura (salmon roe) with quail egg. Uni (sea urchin roe). The hamachi was rich and buttery. The anago had a mysterious, lightly smoky smoothness, less assertive than the unagi. The uni was ethereal sea custard. We drank smooth sake as accompaniment, and finished with a bowl of miso soup. At the end of the meal, Jim looked at me with a glint in his eye. "Let's go to the Rainbow Room for dessert and a drink," he said. We looked at each other. Back and forth. "Ok," he said. "If the check is less than $67.50 before tax, let's go." "Ok, you're on," I said. Wouldn't you know, the check was $67 flat before tax. Random guess, because we ordered most of it without looking at the menu.

So we walked down to Rock Center in the chill air. Walked into that marvelous Art Deco building. "May I help you?" the elevator attendant said. "For drinks," I said. Up the elevator whisked us, to the 65th floor. We were in luck, as a table with a front and center view of the Empire State Building opened up as we arrived. We settled in, and got two glasses of port and a slice of chocolate cake to share. Of course, each glass was nearly the cost of the bottle at a wine store, but we sipped it as we sat back and drank in the sparkling lights shimmering in the heat that rises from the heart of New York even on the coldest night.

When we left, we wandered through the lobby with its oversized, rough-hewn men, sketched in with the desperation and hope of the 1930s. We stood on the brass plate covering the hole for the Christmas tree, and leaned over and watched the few hardy souls skating round and round under the bright lights to tinny Journey. And then we walked, up Fifth Avenue, past the glittering stores full of Western wealth, the Weather Channel truck filming the cold night, past the churches with shivering souls huddled on the steps as their freezing streams of urine trickled and slowed across the sidewalks to the gutter.

Followed By The Wondrous Cranberry Bean

It's funny what a disaster it has become to have your Internet go out. According to my provider, I'm not even supposed to have any connection at all right now. So apparently, this post does not exist.

It's a quick one, though, just to give Cara the satisfaction of an alternate method of preparing fresh, in-the-pod cranberry beans, which were part of our CSA share this week. I'll say one thing about the CSA this year - it's really challenged me to try some things I don't often incorporate into my diet. There are lots of other good things about it, too, but that's another post for another day.

Braised Lamb (or...) with Lentils, Cranberry Beans and Caramelised Fennel

I waffled quite a bit before settling on using lamb for the recipe. The other options I considered were pork shoulder or duck legs. As for cut - I used boned leg of lamb, because it's all I could find. Lamb shoulder would be better, as it dries out less when cooked with low, slow heat. I think this recipe could be made with any of the three meats and still be delicious.

Six servings

2 T extra virgin olive oil
2 pounds boneless lamb roast for braising (preferrably shoulder)
kosher salt
black or green peppercorns

1 large bulb fennel, tough outer leaves removed and rest slivered (need 8 oz. net)

1 onion, diced
1 T olive oil, duck fat or bacon fat
6 oz. lentils

8 oz. fresh cranberry beans (about 1.5 cups; can substitute other types of beans; would be about 3 cups canned beans or a little over a cup of dried beans. Note that if you use dried beans, you will have to soak them properly ahead of time. You're on your own to figure that out.)
1 T olive oil, duck fat or bacon fat

3/4 cup chicken or vegetable stock or broth

4-5 sprigs of fresh rosemary

Preheat oven to 300 F.

Cover lentils with water in a bowl and set aside.

Heat oven-safe Dutch oven over medium to medium-low heat. Generously sprinkle meat with kosher salt and fresh ground pepper. Tuck small sprigs of rosemary into the meat, creating slits if necessary, or using the space from a bone. Add 2 T olive oil to pan and brown meat deeply on all sides. Remove from pan when done browning and set aside, but do not drain fat (if using duck legs, drain 1/2 to 3/4 of the fat. Leave several tablespoons in the pan). Add fennel to pan and cook, stirring occasionally, until it has softened and caramelised, about 10 minutes. Remove fennel from pan and place aside in a bowl. Leave remaining fat in pan and turn off heat until you are ready to assemble the dish for the oven.

While meat is browning, put beans and 1 T oil/fat in a small saucepan, add water to cover, and put over low heat to simmer. Do not boil. Simmer for about 20 minutes, or until beans are tender (I think if you are starting with dried beans this will take much longer; start with this step if necessary). When beans are cooked through (although not completely soft), combine with fennel and salt to taste.

Meanwhile, heat nonstick skillet over low heat. Sweat the diced onion and 1 T minced rosemary in 1 T olive oil/fat until translucent; do not brown. Add lentils and water to cover; stir gently and raise heat slightly to bring to a gentle boil. Let cook for 10-15 minutes, or until lentils have just started to get tender.

Assembling the dish

Pour entire contents (lentil mixture, including water) of skillet into Dutch oven. Add broth. Scatter fennel and beans over top of lentils. Add 1 T minced rosemary and stir in gently. Place meat into center of pan, nestling it into the legumes and liquid. Lay two sprigs of rosemary on top of the meat. Cover, and put into oven until meat is tender. The time will vary greatly. If you get stuck like I did and have to use leg of lamb, cook no longer than about 1 hour to 1 hr. 15 minutes. Duck legs will take about an hour or a little longer for falling-off-the-bone. A lamb or pork shoulder should be cut into perhaps 2" chunks, and may take up to two hours. Or leave whole, and cook longer. Adjust seasoning and remove rosemary sprigs before serving. Serve by ladling some of the legumes and liquid into a wide bowl, placing slices or chunks of meat on top.

Like I said, because I used leg of lamb, the meat ended up being a little dry. But it still tasted delicious, and there was a depth of flavour to the lentils and beans that was deeply satisfying.

This is close to being a blueprint rather than a recipe. It's a great cold-weather dish, and I'm looking forward to trying different variations as real cold weather sets in.

The Wondrous Lima Bean

I found a way to make lima beans taste good, says she in wonderment. I’ve always hated lima beans – those mealy, tasteless things that serve no purpose other than to put lumps in your food. It helps if you start, as I did, with fresh, in-the-pod lima beans from your local CSA. Or is that shell? I guess peas have pods.

So anyway, the first task is to figure out how to extract said lima beans from said encapsulation. It’s not as easy as it sounds. I finally resorted to cutting around the flat edge of each shell thing with a pair of kitchen shears. A pound of beans in the shell yields . . . just about 4 ounces of beans. Yup, a 25% yield.

The next conundrum was how to cook them. I’d been toying with the idea of a puree or a soup. Anything to get rid of the mealiness. A puree would involve various steps, and I just wasn’t in the mood. So I started by steaming them for ten minutes, then turning the flame off and letting them sit while I figured out what to do next. Jim and I both tasted one, and we were surprised by the fairly crisp texture and buttery taste. Never encountered lima beans like these before…. But don’t they call them butterbeans in the South? Light starts shining from the dim lightbulb in the distance.

Time was passing. I threw a knob of butter into the sauté pan, added a pinch of kosher salt, and threw in the beans. Tossed it all together, and tossed again once things were sizzling nicely. I let them brown a bit, and turned the heat down. Covered them. They kept cooking, browning. The meat wasn’t done. I turned the heat all the way down, thinking about the fact that undercooked lima beans can contain a compound of cyanide. Not something I particularly want to serve myself for dinner.

So. I finally decided that the beans were going to be way overcooked, and started to plate them. Perfect timing – the meat was finally ready. But how were the beans? Well. They were absolutely amazing. Each bean was caramelized on the outside, softly crispy skin yielding under gentle pressure to reveal a miniature puree in each bite, butter matching butter. No mealy in sight.

I still have my doubts about lima beans frozen or, or, how else can you buy them? Canned? I’ve never even looked. But the next time I’m given the opportunity to get fresh limas, I won’t hesitate.

Astorians for Hurricane Relief

Astorians for Hurricane Relief.

We're trying to do our small part to ease the pain and suffering so many have been experiencing. People in the community have been amazing at stepping up to the plate. So if you feel like coming to Astoria tomorrow night - or next Sunday, or on November 6, come check out some great entertainment. You'll be helping a lot of other people if you do.

Friday, Oct 7, 8 pm
Music, spoken word, and dance by various artists
Waltz-Astoria
23-14 Ditmars Blvd.
Astoria, NY
$10 minimum donation

Sunday, Oct 16, 6 pm
Music, spoken word and dance by various artists
Freeze Peach
22-00 29th St (Ditmars Blvd & 29th St)
Astoria, NY
No cover, proceeds from 4p-8p will go to charity

Sunday, Nov 6, 8 pm
The Josh Irving Quintet
Mezzo Mezzo
31-29 Ditmars Blvd.
Astoria, NY
$15 minimum donation
Free Buffet & Silent Auction